There’s a comfort in confinement that I can’t find here. The clock is ticking and my heart is beating slow. I can’t fathom the pain of its slow beats.
I’m failing to focus as my mind blurs out the voices. I’m always trying to catch up with sounds I can’t make sense of. I’m always trying to catch up with my mind knowing I’ll fail.
My voice is weary; still, it calls out my name. “Alyazya, don’t you go. Please just stay.” I haven’t held back so much before. I don’t know where I got this strength from. This strength is making me weak. All I do is go on and off of planes I don’t want to take. All they do is numb my mind, numb my heart, and make it a little harder for me to feel alive. I just want to feel alive.
Thoughts are irrelevant, emotions are a despair and living is a waste but you can’t leave a place you’ve never been to.
That last line is especially powerful.
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❤
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I hope this feeling is just a tunnel and that you make it to the other side. Sometimes it’s a fact of life to feel lonely in a crowd. I hope your reflections turn loneliness into a gentle solitude that is capable of comforting you. Xx
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Thank you, Pola💜 You’re comments are a breath of fresh air. You always manage to make me smile 😊💖
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From my qalb to yours ukhti. ❤
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Looks like you just poured your heart out. That’s courage. Speak up, always.
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Relatable and beautifully put 😊
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Thank you 💕
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To bare one’s inner thoughts in such a way is a sign of strength and courage, your prose comes from heart felt truth and therein lies it’s beauty and power.
I feel you are gently sowing seeds, with your words, which will benefit yourself and others over time.
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That’s really sweet 💕 Thank you for your comment! I really appreciate it 😊
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This is amazing with such deep emotions 🌹
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Insightfu truth….most can appreciate feeling isolated even amidst a crowd, my hope is that this feeling isn’t where you mostly reside…Beautifully expressed and engaging.
I’ve nominated you for The Versatile Bloggers Award:
https://uncommonverses.wordpress.com/2017/11/08/the-versatile-blogger-awards/
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Thank you! This is so sweet ^^ I’ve already been nominated for it so, what am I supposed to do :(?
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Not an issue…well deserved….
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You’re too sweet 😦
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Sad, and you have a wonderful, an imaginative way, with words.
Thank you for reading ‘It’s chaos, be kind,’ at nothingcluelesslost.com.
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Gotta love that last part! 👌👌
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