Tag: love

On receiving love

September 21, 2019

“I thirst for love but I don’t know how to receive it. I play games to keep my heart safe. Sometimes, I believe I’m too weird to be wanted. Everything I do invites unwanted stares. I hold things in until my facade turns to rubble ‘cause I’m afraid they’ll get bored of my troubles. I … More On receiving love

Unwanted thoughts

September 14, 2019

I don’t think of you, but my mind does sometimes, and it kills me that you’re not by my side. Nights we spent cozied up together are now silenced by the oceans between us. You drifted away, and I’ve been drowning ever since. I bow down to my heart as I stare at the blank … More Unwanted thoughts

Heart wide shut

August 31, 2019

I can love you forever As long as you’re with me when I close my eyes I don’t have to let go but I won’t move and neither will you I’m willing to fight for you, but I’ll never let you know ’cause I’m at peace with superficial connections feeding off the same old conversations … More Heart wide shut

Goodbye

August 3, 2019

You were a beautiful possibility. You could’ve found a home in me, but the hollowness behind your skin revealed a dark and soulless stare. I never wanted to escape reality when I was with you but you lived in fantasies made of me when the magic was right in front of you. I bet you … More Goodbye

The fall

July 27, 2019

When the ocean walks away and the waves go silent — when the air remains still and the sun fades in the darkness, I’m pulled away from the shore. The water is growing on me and the wind comes to push away my steps towards earth’s core. I see a wistful smile whirling around me; … More The fall

In your head

July 20, 2019

What makes you think I’ll leave my life to be by your side? Oh boy, don’t you know? I walked a thousand miles. I lived a thousand lives. Oh boy, I know how to handle pain and this doesn’t compare. You might need me there to hold you when you’re weak But I’m good right here … More In your head

Choices

September 20, 2018

I’m hiding from the sun behind curtains that barely hold back the light as both of my worlds continue to collapse before me, but with everything going on all I can think about is “I don’t know how I feel about this anymore.” The best thing I’ve learned is that everything we do is a … More Choices

This is love

June 16, 2018

After the chaos has passed, love still stands strong within me. Love is not standing by an empty street waiting for headlights you know you’ll never see but fragments of your heart linger around the possibility of seeing your reflection in his eyes. It is not walking back home alone afterward with your head low. … More This is love

A Reminiscence

May 19, 2018

I’m looking at the clouds that look like snow. Something about winter reminds me of you. I remember the look on your face that Wednesday afternoon, afraid we have nothing in common anymore, and the look in your eyes when I promised I’d always be around to keep you warm. If you’re reading this, I hope you … More A Reminiscence

1953-2016

May 12, 2018

Three hours later, his lifeline rests in peace. People covered in white and black lean on one another like pieces from a chess game mourning the loss of their king. Afra, the youngest, breaks down in front of his room. “Dad… Dad…” she calls out. No reply. Held by Faisal and Mohammed, my mother walks … More 1953-2016

Subdued

December 31, 2017

Under the rain, I am restrained, with nowhere to face except for all the things coming my way. Water once cold and warm, formed marshes in my deserted home. In a funny world, I was evergreen, until the rain moated my soul. And I, as Tiresias, have foresuffered all, under water touched by a trojan whore. Inextricably … More Subdued

Deterioration

November 28, 2017

I don’t know why I’m in a rush to be someone else. I’m too afraid to be myself or let myself be me, and I’m almost envious of who I used to be. I’m caught up in a hurricane. All I do is lay down as time passes by and the stress builds up. I wish … More Deterioration

Delusion

November 25, 2017

  I’m pacing the pavement near your home and every step is a sharp pain in my chest. A restless heart yearning to see you; it’s jumping through my bones. My body follows. 1, 2, 3 steps. 3 breaths. 600 heartbeats. In torment, the skin tightens around my bones. My eyes flicker with the wind and … More Delusion

Handfuls

November 18, 2017

  I was holding onto handfuls of expectation then summer came down like a waterfall and took you away.  I lost a war I didn’t know I was fighting. I guess happiness came at a price I wasn’t willing to pay. Now, I’m lost between memories ’cause I was in your arms just yesterday. I wish I never … More Handfuls

Lustful

November 14, 2017

No matter who I’m driving to, I’m always thinking of you. Tracing your soft edges with my eyes, I’m stuck in the thought of being wrapped in your arms. Lost in focus. How will your toned skin feel against mine? It’s nothing I can explain, I’ve never faced a desire I can’t out-win and I … More Lustful

In With The Wind

November 11, 2017

  You come in with the wind in all your woe. No longer resting on your tongue, words are falling into feelings. It doesn’t take a sentence, it only takes a word. In a whisper, you are okay. Its grief’s loss to give you away. Reconciling with your heart once again, in words you don’t … More In With The Wind