I wish I had it in me to let you know
that all of this is just for show.
Don’t believe the things I say
’cause I walk between the cracks on the floor
to avoid lying while holding the truth.
Your arms imprison me. I never want to escape your embrace.
Your warmth is comforting. You hold me close, but my mind pulls me into another world.
My heart didn’t want to follow, but it drowned in my thoughts. Now, it’s completely soaked.
Will you get bored with me?
Are you thinking of letting go?
These thoughts haunt me. This is why I always lose.
I want to feel you as you hold me, but I’m afraid
so I touch you with numb hands
and kiss you with cold lips.
Would you forgive me for pretending to let you in?
Would you let me try to get close to you again?
May I admire your silhouette and sweet smiles?
May I close my eyes and pretend you are mine?
Can I tell you a secret? Will you keep it safe?
I’m afraid of loving. A broken heart could cost me my life.
I say I’m alright, but I don’t recognize my voice in the crowds.
Have I been lying to myself? Is this what betrayal feels like?
You are pretty in my thoughts, pretty when you visit my dreams.
You are a pretty thought, even if you’re not for me.
Would you forgive me if I told you I was scared?
Would you think I’m a freak, or would you understand my fears?
You know, I always thought sad beginnings can never have happy endings.
Either way, I’m sorry you had to meet me this way.