I do not recall the last time I was with someone, yet I do not remember the last time I was alone. All I know is that I can tolerate loneliness as long as people surround me.
For some time, I thought it stemmed from the fear of actually being alone but I’ve come to realize that I fear nothing but myself.
No, this is not a positive message lavished with self-love. What I mean to say is that I’m afraid of being alone with myself, with my own feelings and thoughts because maybe, just maybe, I will succumb to my need to face who I am.
I’m more in touch with my values and purpose when I’m alone, yet I still feel out of place. I find myself getting caught up in fairy-tales, but every day, for just a minute, I become a rationalist. It’s like I’m a lost dog sitting still on a clear path towards my home.
For me, moving forward requires solitude but how do I do that when I feel lonely all the time? My constant craving for human touch and my need to escape myself overpowers me.
I tame words that beg to be flushed out of my body.
I hold tears that plead to be let go of.
All, because, I am afraid of being alone.
Love, Alyazya
ALYAZYA 
You just inspired me to write this;
https://aatayyab.wordpress.com/2018/06/09/loneliness-by-alyazya/
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Reading this article made me feel like I’m speaking for myself. Most people are afraid to be left out alone by the people who mean so much to them and afraid to keep living knowing that nobody else would be there constantly or we just don’t feel the connection with people. We crave for a bond with humans but they fail to deliver most of the times. It’s like you’re completely fine being all by yourself but there still exist a thought that maybe there’s something else other than being alone, that maybe something or someone can provide you with the answers you’ve been seeking for a long time and the feelings that may fill a void within your mind and perhaps to your sanity at a whole that you couldn’t describe at all for being profoundly vague.
It’s a good read by the way. Thank you.
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That’s an interesting take on this post. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
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I enjoy my alone time. It’s precious to me and I embrace it. I get to read, write, think, exercise, paint (try) and connect quietly with my soul. I look forward to what I might discover within myself. Uplifting to me; but I must admit it took some getting use to at first. Now, I’m like bye, see ya later. Yay, I’m alone again…
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I can’t wait to reach that point 😭
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Hey! You’re one of my favorites on here. I Enjoy reading your posts! Hope you have a nice weekend!
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Thank you for your sweet message! I hope you have a great one as well!
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I admire the honesty in your post. You may like my post for today, a poet writing about the value of solitude and my photo to go with the verse.
https://spiritinpolitics.wordpress.com/2018/06/09/for-peace-comes-dropping-slow-yeats/
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Been there. https://mitchteemley.com/2017/03/20/my-epic-of-anxiety-4/
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Good post. Personally, I fear being alone. I think lots of people do.
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Your message is universal – loneliness is a real fear. Illness forced me into isolation, and solitude became my norm. I found that once I got through the initial discomfort, I came to enjoy my quiet, alone time – and discovered parts of myself long buried.
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Reblogged this on The Militant Negro™.
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I have just nominated you for the Mystery Blogger Award. Hope you have some fun with it. Looking forward to getting to know you better. Have a good one!
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Awww, thank you! You’re so sweet. Have a wonderful day!
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You are most welcome! Have a great rest of the week.
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Great post! The words portray honesty towards the real feelings….
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A hauntingly beautiful post. Fear of being alone is something that’s kind of universal but the fear of being alone with yourself is not something I’ve really ever thought about. Thank you for sharing your story, it definitely offers a new perspective to people. Great work!
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Thank you
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Being alone is the scariest thing for me but sometimes it also helps me to figure out what really makes me happy. Love your post, sweetie. 🙂
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Incredibly well written; thank you
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Thank you!
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What a powerful write up. When we are alone our mind is on overdrive, for it is talking to self. And the values, the perturbations, and conscience all becomes a deadly potion. You are not alone thinking this
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I learnt to enjoy my time alone by doing the things that I love to do. Being alone means I can go by my own pace doing what I want to do without dragging or slowing down others. I am also able to learn more about myself when I spend more me time.
Because I’m able to have my alone time, I can completely enjoy and appreciate the times I spend with other people. My alone time also taught me how to care for myself, which has also helped me to care after other people when I spend time with them.
I hope that you’ll be able to enjoy your time alone too. 🙂
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Thank you for sharing 💜
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Being alone is the only way to reflect and reframe our lives !
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True
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A friend of mine once said we have no excuse to be lonely. I think this post is a qualification and evaluation of that statement.
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http://tanyabakshi.net/2018/06/18/loneliness-%f0%9f%99%8d/ read my blog too
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