At a Loss of Words

Geneva, Switzerland
My Little Geneva

I walked the seas and swam the deserts searching for words. I have nothing left to say.

Collapsing against my skin; waves turn into droughts that spill into my mind like water used to grow roses once dead. Droughts I cannot comprehend.

Leaving my soul wishing for a love heavy on its shoulders: a love that stains my sheets with shreds of memories running down my cheeks. Stains I cannot fathom.

The slightest touch throws me into a pool of agony and desire.

Looking for a savior in the space above me; “have I gotten familiar with the faded sky or has it gotten accustomed to me?” Stars I cannot grasp, even with my weight resting on my toes.

I call out to a name without a face. Hello, god. Where are you? You’re hiding behind your throne, watching your children die, aren’t you?ย A god I cannot follow.

Into this wilderness, behind me lays a child with yellow heels and a white dress on. She’s happy. Deeper down the woods, I lose my sense of sense. I want to be happy too. A nature I cannot untangle.

Thoughts are woven into my nerves, running through my tongue to shock you with its silence. “The best of you is just a part of the worst of me.” I cannot say I love you. I cannot risk losing.

I’m giving meaning to words that donโ€™t belong together to tell stories stolen from my dreams. Dreams too big to be held in paper.


Love, Alyazya

36 thoughts on “At a Loss of Words

  1. Oh my! Thank you so much for this fantastic post! I really loved this! So many beautiful and masterful words that touched my heart! You have left seeds of inspiration all through this piece! I have one of your seeds in this piece that has already blossomed into a poem from me. Thank you so much for this spark of inspiration!! Your line – stories stolen from my dreams turned into my “Memories Gone Rogue”! I am so indebted to you!!!

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    1. Hey! Oh my god, this is so sweet! I tried looking for your post but I couldn’t find it, could you please send me a link!

      This makes me so happy ๐Ÿ˜Š โค๏ธ

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